4/11/2020
MAN ON THE CROSS SAYS OTHERWISE!
Jesus grant healing
to the broken spirit
which I carry within
hurting inside
blowing up at small touch
reveals the deep wound
do I caress it?
do I nurse it?
for what?
then why am I
pondering over it
again & again.
it is being caressed
and thought on so much
its taking roots of dislike
and then turning into deep hatred
that to me it seems
totally alright
and justified
But the Man on The Cross
says otherwise!
He shows his hands,
his feet and his head
which has thorns & nails
as I caressed
comforted my wounds
I was pressing those
on his head
making it firm
making sure
it doesn't leave that place
my eyes and heart
so consumed with
hate, hurt and pain
I forgot
it brought blood
oozing out
that flowed
not because of anyone else
but me
How ignorant and small I am
calling myself
disciple of the Master
whom I crucify
and give Him crown of thorns
Take it out
take away
those nails and thorns
Man on the Cross
didn't deserve it
someone else did
I am that someone
I see myself
in the role of the soldier
the thief who rejected paradise
But Lord you are calling me
to find myself
in the role of Mary
in the role of John
in the role of Joseph
embracing death that comes
because of sin
embracing love
in hurtful moments
embracing the place to rest
even when it isn't mine
Master take away those
thorns and nails
I will not caress and sulk
over and over again
in my wound
rather I will care
for you
I'll seek Our Lady
how she handled it
broken and wounded
yet she stood still
knowing and believing
You are God
Teach me to focus
on your wounds
your pain O Lord
in the light of which
mine seems nothing
remind me again
what takes place on Calvary
when I sit and caress and lick
my wounds within
when I forget
to lift my gaze
to the moments
when you hung on the Cross
not for anyone else
but for me
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love ya,
SM_eagle
