Moment of grace

Whenever I struggle and feel like giving up, its HIS passion, death and resurrection that keeps me going on. I turn to what St.Paul in his First letter to Corinthian church writes, "For the message about the Cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God...For God's foolishness is wiser than human wisdom, and God's weakness is stronger than the human strength." {Ch1:18 &25}.

You might be going through really..really..really harsh times, which can't even be described in human words and you feel like giving up, my friends, I encourage you to look at JESUS in garden of Gethsemane, who is looking at the Father recieving the strength and grace during this darkest night of not just the gospel but of HIS very own life on earth.

28 February, 2004
11:30 p.m.

MOMENT OF GRACE (2004)
Every dark night I feel, 'I'm done'
Can't walk anymore
I fall with no energy to stand...up again!!!

Then You show me Your walk upto the Calvary
even You had torturous falls
not just physical, but emotionally ripping You apart
You show me that pulling of Your beard
You show me public humiliation You went through
seeing all that...
I feel not even little have I comforted You
by refusing to carry my shame and insults

I just know, by Your compassionate looks
what I need to do.
All He says, "Just get up and walk, you're not alone
I'll walk with you, all over again."
so with the strength I recieve from My Lord
in that moment of grace
I stand and walk again
knowing I need HIM at every step,
will surely find the strength in that one moment of grace.
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

My longing

Life in Christ is surely not a cake walk, its challenging, its demanding, its a fight against my flesh, trials and temptations. Like Peter, when I take notice of the strong wind, waves, difficulties; I too begin to sink, but my Lord so faithful immediately reaches HIS hand and holds me, lifts my spirit to soar in the midst of storm and no longer strong winds, waves in my life bother me...for HE calms it all within me.

28 February, 2004

MY LONGING(2004)
My soul is longing to be in Your embrace
that's the only place, where I find comfort
Hide me in Your wounds
where I get strengthened
In silence I look up to You
to hear and learn from You

All the longings of my life seem to be useless
the moment I see Your awesome face
seeing You on the Cross
I am ashamed of myself, my sins,
the tears of mine are not sufficient
I fall again and again
What a wretched creature I am!
When I loose my hope, I look upto You...
things are out of order in my life
which reminds me I need to accept Your Lordship...once again.
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

Come in our hearts

I don't even remember under which circumstance I wrote this...guess was just thinking...and I wrote it. :-)

7 April, 2001

COME IN OUR HEARTS (2001)
Come in Our hearts today, Lord
with Your joy & happiness fill this place
let there be songs of praise
our hearts, minds & soul we raise

Fill this place with Your presence
touch our lives & make us whole again
For we stand in need of You
and Your presence Lord

Under Your wings hide me Lord
'cause there are fears deep within
cover me with you strong arms
Hide me under your wings of love
that I may experience Your love's warmth.

Come today in our hearts, lives & minds
we leave passions of the world behind
and follow the Cross everywhere
We'll be witness even in despair
come in our hearts today Lord
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

I'd love YOU

27 January, 2005

I want to be an ardent lover of Christ..even though at times I don't know what it calls for...

I'm gonna love YOU, all of my days
I'm gonna love YOU, No matter what it takes
I'm gonna love YOU, though circumstances fail
I'm gonna love YOU, no matter what people say
For I will smile at YOU
For I will cry to YOU
For I will hold on to YOU
For I will sing unto YOU
I LOVE YOU LORD.

It calls for Decision
It calls for paying price...

I'd love YOU, when I am with YOU
I'd love YOU, when YOU are there for me
I'd love YOU, when things go wrong
I'd love YOU, when I don't have a song
I'd love YOU, when I feel dry and wretched
I'd love YOU, when everything seems alright
I'd love YOU, no matter what comes
But my sweetheart, Jesus, give me the grace to be an ardent lover of yours.
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

In the Stillness

One of the bad thing with me is that I don't have the habbit of recording the melodies and the result is when I need to remember it, I have no clue about some parts of my poems. This melody I composed in 2002...I have forgotten the original melody, a bit of chorus... guess will try and work it out. Its on D, G, Em.


IN THE STILLNESS (2002)
In the stillness of my heart
Speak your word and let my sin depart
In the stillness of my heart
Tell those words of comfort

'Cause I need to hear from YOU
'Cause I need to love YOU more
And I need to learn from YOU
For YOU are humble & meek of Heart

In the presence of my Lord
I love to sit and I love to adore
In YOUR presence, O my Lord
I love to come to worship
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

Let me walk with You

Just felt like writing and this is what I wrote...no rhyming, no phrases...what I felt like doing was expressed in my diary.

9 January, 2004
11:15pm

LET ME WALK WITH YOU (2004)
I'm gonna walk upto the Calvary
and ask for mercy for my sins
My debts, my punishment is what I see
price paid by Christ on the tree.

Let me walk along with You Jesus to the Calvary
give You company on this way of sorrow and pain
I want to give You comfort,
wipe Your tears
love You even more
Let me walk upto the Calvary with YOU
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

Never knew... Love... Now I know

What a blessing to know a GOD, who loved you so much, that HE laid down HIS life on HIS own for you & me... Though I was a christian by birth, I discovered my GOD gradually over the years. As You read through, I pray may you have a personal encounter with the one, who has loved you even before the foundation of the earth, outpours HIS love on you this very moment and will continue till the end of your life. Smile for HE LOVES YOU, proof...LOOK at THE CROSS.

4 January, 2001

NEVER KNEW...LOVE...NOW I KNOW (2001)
I never knew...
that HE was there, when I cried
Never knew...
HE was there, when I struggled & tried
Never knew...
HE was there, when I was totally broken
Never knew...
HE was there, when those harsh words were spoken
Never knew...
HE was there, through my hard & rough times
and soothed my soul with HIS sweet chimes.

But, it was I,
who never heard those words of comfort,
"Come, my loving child, the apple of my eye.
I am always there...hear my voice that cries,
I Love You in those times of brokeness
I Love You when you go through trials
I Love You when your spirit is frail
for I want to let you know....in your frailty I am great."

What love! love so real
Love that I can see and feel
Love, which is so deep
and everyday I breathe
Love, which touches
my life and my soul
Love, which takes away
my trails and cries
giving me ease and freedom
in everything I do
with Your power & strength
I will go,
To tell the world
about Your love, which is always there
all you need to do is,
Open your life
Open the areas of trial & brokeness
and HE will be there.
HE'LL be there, whenever you need HIM,
whenever you call HIM, HE'LL be there
with HIS love, comforting you night & day.

Now I know...
HE was, is & will be there
when I cry
HE will be there
when I try
HE will be there
when I am broken
HE will be there
when those harsh words will be spoken
Now I know...
HE was, is & will be there
'Cause HE's known as
EMAMUNEL-God with us.
HE'LL be there
through all my rough & hard times
soothing & loving my soul
with HIS sweet chimes.
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

You are the One

This song I remember very clearly, because this one I wrote and composed on 30 December, 2003. I was preparing for 31 December 2003 Thanksgiving adoration and as I strummed my guitar, this melody and lyrics came spontaneously. Its on G, C9, D, Em, C (one of my favourite chord combination).


YOU ARE THE ONE (2003)
You are the anchor of my soul
Jesus, You alone I adore
You're the Prince of Peace
You're the King of kings

You alone came to die for me
You now live in me
Jesus, You are the ONE
who sets me free.

You're the Way and the Truth
You're the Life and the Door
Jesus, You are the ONE
who is my all.
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

Just for me

23 March, 2004

JUST FOR ME
With wind on my face,
I feel Your hug, Your love & Your embrace.
The freshness of the air,
the stillness at night...
it reminds me of the works of Your hand,
the sun, the moon, all stars hanging up in the sky
you made all that...just for me!
The Universe in its totality declares one thing
My Lord loves me intensely!!!

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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

Time stands still

12 February, 2004
11:40pm


Like a new moon, renew me Jesus
at times my heart just wishes to be with YOU forever.
Like a mad lover....my being has an immense longing for YOU, my Lord.
My life is just not enough, to give You the glory
Your love...your love is too great for me, it takes my breath away.
I miss out on a heartbeat everytime I get a glimpse of Your love for me.

I just lift up my heart and my hand to tell You, 'I Love YOU'.
It's deep, strong emotion in my heart...
so deep, so strong that I loose my sleep... thinking about You, JESUS,
time stands still with YOU.

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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

Inner You

This is from the bottom of my heart, year 1999. Its surely is amazing to feel, to see, to recognize what love for someone can do to you. It shifts focus from oneself to someone else. St. Paul says it all in one line..."Love never ends."

INNER YOU (1999)
I saw an inner You,
which made me fall for you.
Physical charm, physical beauty,
it's all a transitory stage,
which fades away as time passes by.

I saw something, which I see
only in you & in nobody else.
I saw an understanding,
a person who holds a different place in my heart.

You hold 'second special place' in my life.
A soft corner in my heart
will always be there for you.

Even when You will leave me,
alone in this big world,
even when you're gone,
lost among the crowd
I can recognize you, even if my eyes can't...
my heart will surely do.
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

Heart of love

As I was chatting with my cousin, Amit, the idea of this post clicked and here it is. Thanks Amit... this one is for you. This was a song that me and my cousin brother, Nikhil, composed and I gave words to it. Its on Em, C, D, Am, G.

HEART OF LOVE (2001)
Those beautiful eyes are searching,
A heart of love is thirsty
Arms of compassion are empty,
For you HE is waiting.

For You, HE is searching; For You, HE is waiting
see for yourself, a world, a MAN,
on The Cross hanging, wanting to love.

Wanting to embrace You, hold You close to HIS heart
touch HIM and HE'LL touch You,
HE'LL heal your broken heart.
run back to HIM, hold HIM tight
never let go.

Wanting to love You, more day by day...
Give Your life in HIS hand
and you'll see The Promised Land
Taste HIS love and drink HIS Spirit
poured on us.
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Love ya,
SM_eagle

I'm in love...

As I went through my notes, found more lines dipped in love. I wrote this as a young girl, whose waiting for someone special... My writings were those of an amateur that time and so are even today... Well, the waiting time is still on...and I still have that young girl hidden somewhere in my heart.

I'M IN LOVE (June 1998)
I long to be with someone like you,
wherever and whichever way you go
'coz I'm in love with You,
and I wish to stay and know you more.

I want to express my love,
but have fear of rejection...
what if, you say 'NO' and break my heart.

I want, you to propose me
that I may accept and be free.
I hope for that day to come,
when you'll say, 'You're my love'

And we'll stand in defence of love
'coz our love will be as pure as dove.
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

I long for...

Another diary entry...I wrote this when my life was going through major inner turmoil. My soul was parched and I longed just for HIM, who knew what I was going through...

1 May, 2004

I LONG FOR...
When one is up late in the night
and remembers all painful things of life
tears just fill your eyes
trying to figure out the answer for the famous question "WHY"

All I remember deep in my heart
to let those tears flow in HIS presence in the dark.
No one to see you through,
no one to hug,
no one to wipe those tears.

I long for HIS voice and for HIS touch,
wish I can see HIM with my physical eyes...
sitting beside me, putting HIS gentle arms around me...comforting me
gathering my tears in HIS palm
and whispering to me, 'I cherish each one.'
Come give me a warm hug in the stillness,
my heart longs for such a moment.

'I Miss YOU, Lord.' my soul tells...
where to find HIM is the only concern.
Change me, Mould me...all I want
just play a love song to my soul
and let YOUR healing flow...

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Love ya,
SM_eagle

Wish to contnue my journey...with YOU

Just wanna post few of my diary entries.....

22 February, 2004

12:15a.m.

When I look back..... Life seemed to be in a mess, till YOU came...

When YOU came, YOU were more than a miracle, more than a wonder. Who knew...

YOU came to make the difference, to change my life for eternity. Transformed my outlook... way to look at situations, people and things.

Don't know What, How and Why it happened, but down the years its been beautiful... to grow from a young girl to a woman....

With YOU JESUS...I wish to continue my journey...With YOU...

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Love Ya,

SM_eagle

Say 'Yes' to HIM & see the change

Through many church programes, we come to encounter JESUS...we give our life...we make HIM our LORD and SAVIOUR but as we start walking, we come in conflict with our flesh ..... Now in this inner conflict...whose side do we take? Do we FIGHT back or give in those temptations... Here is what I have to say


SAY YES TO HIM & SEE THE CHANGE (2000)
Say 'YES' to HIM & let HIM rule your life,
with HIS coming you will be
free from all the strife.
HE will change the world around you,
and you will see everything brand new!

HE will make you a new creation,
and take you towards perfect completion.
HE will transform you slowly... into HIS image and likeness.
that whoever will see you... they'll ask "Are You Jesus of Nazereth?"

People will see the change in your life,
many will appreciate and greet you with a smile.
But beware... don't fly too high
or you will be left with just a sigh!
Many will discourage you, but don't be shy....
to acknowledge HIS presence in your life.
People will say, "It's no use...
...you don't know where you'll land."
But my friends, Keep Yourself
Walking with JESUS hand in hand.

No matter what you do, No matter what people say,
tell people that HE moulds You in HIS way.

There's a JOY unending, which your soul recieve
JOY, which no one else in the world can give.

He spends blindly on YOU HIS unconditional love,
so Don't let HIM down
'Coz HE redeemed YOU from sin & grief
HE gave You life abundant & free
So Dear Friends, 'Let's Just Live For HIM'.
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Love Ya,
SM_eagle

Stolen my heart

This one goes way back to June 1998...I had just started understanding what it means to have crush, mushy-mushy feeling, puppy love, when you get that one glance by someone whom you like....Oh! boy it surely is a special feeling...so here am I refreshing my first crush memories.

STOLEN MY HEART (1998)

You have stolen my heart
with one glance of your eyes
You have stolen my heart
with one smile you gave to me
You have stolen my heart
with the thoughts you have

You have stolen my heart
with the appreciation you have for me
You have stolen my heart
with the understanding you show
You have stolen my heart
with the love you hold for me

All these things made me to fall for you
I fall totally & completely in love with you
Everytime I see or talk to you
I feel like saying, "Fallen in love with you all over again."

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Love ya,
SM_eagle

Man of a BIG heart

These few lines were my first ever published lines in a local christian magazine, so here I put these as my first post too...

MAN OF A BIG HEART (2000)
Looking at the man on the wooden Cross,
naked, stripped off HIS clothes,
such pain and suffering,
Can You imagine, what HE undertook?

Man with such a big heart,
who forgave till the last,
forgave each and every person HE met,
even YOU and ME are included.

HE paid such a big price,
but we forgot and gave HIM a surprise.
What made HIM to do that?
Was HE off the track?
It was hard for me to understand,
until I heard HIM say,
"I LOVE YOU & for YOU I STAND."

I realised the importance of The CROSS and thorns
and experienced how much love, HE holds for me in HIS heart.
HIS heart is full of love & mercy,
which flows especially for YOU & ME.

No wonder HE changed lives of so many,
I challenge you, my friends
HE'll do it for YOU as HE did it for me.
Because HE's a MAN of a BIG HEART.
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Love ya,
SM_eagle